Friday, February 28, 2003

Jen

lips like sugar. sugar kisses

Ah, what to say? I've been really busy with work and school, like always, which is super boring to talk about. As for everyone else, if I could make a guess. . . Greg is teaching, Becky is on her way home from Cinncinati, Brian is off in an office not so far away from me - but still we never see each other during the week!!!! - and Christie may be catching up on her filing.

We had a portfolio review this morning, which is always a nice break during the month. We got some work from this woman in Minnesota who sneaks a comera into strip clubs with her to take pictures. Then she interviews people about what they think of the clubs and uses them as captions. Anyway, one of the questions she asked to strip club patrons was what they thought of the decor. I thought that was a pretty funny question, considering that all strip clubs are dark places with tacky neon lights and decorations. So, someone asked me how I knew so much about strip clubs and I replied " I don't make that much money here and a girl has to pay her bills." I'm probably going to hear about that one for awhile, because according to the folks I work with, I currently work at a strip club and go by the name "Sugar."

For the first, and hopefully, last time, I saw "Are you Hot?" on channel 7 last night. I seriously felt like my IQ dropped after watching the show. Anyway, the whole premise is to find out if you are considered hot by three judges - one is model Rachel Hunter, another is some fashion designer and the last is, as they say "international heartthrob" Lorenzo Lamas. Ok, 1) international heartthrob? He was on a UPN show called Renegade, and most people don't even know who the hell he is. 2) he is not even remotely good looking, and yet, he gets to critique people on their looks. hmmm. 3) did I mention international heartthrob? hello? who is this guy? So, yeah.

One exciting thing that will be happening for me is my trip to Austin at the end of this month. I am going to the SPE conference, but mostly, I consider it a mini vaction. I am counting down the days as we speak.

Ok, that's all for now. Anyone else have anything to say?

Wednesday, February 19, 2003

Jen

I usually leave the political stuff up to Brian, but I got this e-mail today and I thought it would be interesting to post some of it. Oh hell, I'll post it all. It's long, I warn you.

By US Senator Robert Byrd
Senate Floor Speech - Wednesday, February 12, 2003

To contemplate war is to think about the most horrible of human experiences. On this February day, as this nation stands at the brink of battle, every American on some level must be contemplating the horrors of war.

Yet, this Chamber is, for the most part, silent -- ominously, dreadfully silent.  There is no debate, no discussion, no attempt to lay out for the nation the pros and cons of this particular war.  There is nothing.

We stand passively mute in the United States Senate, paralyzed by our own uncertainty, seemingly stunned by the sheer turmoil of events.  Only on the editorial pages of our newspapers is there much substantive discussion of the prudence or imprudence of engaging in this particular war.

And this is no small conflagration we contemplate.  This is no simple attempt to defang a villain.  No.  This coming battle, if it materializes, represents a turning point in U.S. foreign policy and possibly a turning point in the recent history of the world.

This nation is about to embark upon the first test of a revolutionary doctrine applied in an extraordinary way at an unfortunate time.  The doctrine of preemption -- the idea that the United States or any other nation can legitimately attack a nation that is not imminently threatening but may be threatening in the future -- is a radical new twist on the traditional idea of self defense.  It appears to be in contravention of international law and the UN Charter.  And it is being tested at a time of world-wide terrorism, making many countries around the globe wonder if they will soon be on our -- or some other nation's -- hit list.  High level Administration figures recently refused to take nuclear weapons off of the table when discussing a possible attack against Iraq. What could be more destabilizing and unwise than this type of uncertainty, particularly in a world where globalism has tied the vital economic and security interests of many nations so closely together?  There are huge cracks emerging in our time-honored alliances, and U.S. intentions are suddenly subject to damaging worldwide speculation.  Anti-Americanism based on mistrust, misinformation, suspicion, and alarming rhetoric from U.S. leaders is fracturing the once solid alliance against global terrorism which existed after September 11.

Here at home, people are warned of imminent terrorist attacks with little guidance as to when or where such attacks might occur.  Family members are being called to active military duty, with no idea of the duration of their stay or what horrors they may face.  Communities are being left with less than adequate police and fire protection.  Other essential services are also short-staffed.  The mood of the nation is grim.  The economy is stumbling. Fuel prices are rising and may soon spike higher.

This Administration, now in power for a little over two years, must be judged on its record.  I believe that that record is dismal.

In that scant two years, this Administration has squandered a large projected surplus of some $5.6 trillion over the next decade and taken us to projected deficits as far as the eye can see.  This Administration's domestic policy has put many of our states in dire financial condition, under funding scores of essential programs for our people.  This Administration has fostered policies which have slowed economic growth. This Administration has ignored urgent matters such as the crisis in health care for our elderly.  This Administration has been slow to provide adequate funding for homeland security.  This Administration has been reluctant to better protect our long and porous borders.

In foreign policy, this Administration has failed to find Osama bin Laden. In fact, just yesterday we heard from him again marshaling his forces and urging them to kill.  This Administration has split traditional alliances, possibly crippling, for all time, International order-keeping entities like the United Nations and NATO.  This Administration has called into question the traditional worldwide perception of the United States as well-intentioned, peacekeeper.  This Administration has turned the patient art of diplomacy into threats, labeling, and name calling of the sort that reflects quite poorly on the intelligence and sensitivity of our leaders, and which will have consequences for years to come.

Calling heads of state pygmies, labeling whole countries as evil, denigrating powerful European allies as irrelevant -- these types of crude insensitivities can do our great nation no good.  We may have massive military might, but we cannot fight a global war on terrorism alone.  We need the cooperation and friendship of our time-honored allies as well as the newer found friends whom we can attract with our wealth.  Our awesome military machine will do us little good if we suffer another devastating attack on our homeland which severely damages our economy.  Our military manpower is already stretched thin and we will need the augmenting support of those nations who can supply troop strength, not just sign letters cheering us on.

The war in Afghanistan has cost us $37 billion so far, yet there is evidence that terrorism may already be starting to regain its hold in that region. We have not found bin Laden, and unless we secure the peace in Afghanistan, the dark dens of terrorism may yet again flourish in that remote and devastated land.

Pakistan as well is at risk of destabilizing forces.  This Administration has not finished the first war against terrorism and yet it is eager to embark on another conflict with perils much greater than those in Afghanistan.  Is our attention span that short?  Have we not learned that after winning the war one must always secure the peace?

And yet we hear little about the aftermath of war in Iraq.  In the absence of plans, speculation abroad is rife.  Will we seize Iraq's oil fields, becoming an occupying power which controls the price and supply of that nation's oil for the foreseeable future?  To whom do we propose to hand the reigns of power after Saddam Hussein?

Will our war inflame the Muslim world resulting in devastating attacks on Israel?  Will Israel retaliate with its own nuclear arsenal?  Will the Jordanian and Saudi Arabian governments be toppled by radicals, bolstered by Iran which has much closer ties to terrorism than Iraq?

Could a disruption of the world's oil supply lead to a world-wide recession? Has our senselessly bellicose language and our callous disregard of the interests and opinions of other nations increased the global race to join the nuclear club and made proliferation an even more lucrative practice for nations which need the income?

In only the space of two short years this reckless and arrogant Administration has initiated policies which may reap disastrous consequences for years.

One can understand the anger and shock of any President after the savage attacks of September 11.  One can appreciate the frustration of having only a shadow to chase and an amorphous, fleeting enemy on which it is nearly impossible to exact retribution.

But to turn one's frustration and anger into the kind of extremely destabilizing and dangerous foreign policy debacle that the world is currently witnessing is inexcusable from any Administration charged with the awesome power and responsibility of guiding the destiny of the greatest superpower on the planet.  Frankly many of the pronouncements made by this Administration are outrageous.  There is no other word.

Yet this chamber is hauntingly silent.  On what is possibly the eve of horrific infliction of death and destruction on the population of the nation of Iraq -- a population, I might add, of which over 50% is under age 15 -- this chamber is silent.  On what is possibly only days before we send thousands of our own citizens to face unimagined horrors of chemical and biological warfare -- this chamber is silent.  On the eve of what could possibly be a vicious terrorist attack in retaliation for our attack on Iraq, it is business as usual in the United States Senate.

We are truly "sleepwalking through history."  In my heart of hearts I pray that this great nation and its good and trusting citizens are not in for a rudest of awakenings.

To engage in war is always to pick a wild card.  And war must always be a last resort, not a first choice.  I truly must question the judgment of any President who can say that a massive unprovoked military attack on a nation which is over 50% children is "in the highest moral traditions of our country".  This war is not necessary at this time.  Pressure appears to be having a good result in Iraq.  Our mistake was to put ourselves in a corner so quickly.  Our challenge is to now find a graceful way out of a box of our own making.  Perhaps there is still a way if we allow more time.

Thursday, February 13, 2003

Jen

If they can make machines to save us labor. Someday they'll do out hearts the very same favor

Ive been reading Brave New World by Aldous Huxley and I can't get that Dismemberment Plan song (Memory Machine - that's where the above quote is from) out of my head, because Travis makes a refernce to the book and well, the song just fits everthing that's going on so well. God, it's so sad that they broke up! But then again, all good things must come to an end. Isn't that the saying?

I just had my two classes for the week, which seem like they are going to be very helpful and all around very good. I got off of class early, so I can either a) go back down to work and help prepare for the opening b) clean the dust off the negs I scanned yesterday or c)check my e-mail and blog. I choose c.

Can I start a rant?

Has everyone bought their duct tape and plastic?

I'm just trying to figure out who in their right mind thinks that putting plastic and using duct tape to cover their windows in any way, shape or form is going to protect them from chemical warfare. Please tell me. I can't even believe how ridiculous the thought is. But, people believe it. It's crazy to think how well propaganda works and how the media can scare people into going to war. If you pick up the Sun Times today (still the shittiest paper in Chicago, but hey, people read it) there is a headline that missiles form Korea can reach and bomb L.A (Right next to car ads and Simpsons Trivia). Talk about scaring the public into thinking that the US has to do something before something happens to us: "If we as a country don't act first then we will be destroyed." Most, if not all countries in Europe don't want to go to war, and then Bush makes them out to be "evil?" I'd love to meet and shake the hands of every moron who thought that electing Bush for president was a good idea.

I'm sorry that this rant has no format, I'm just pissed off.

Tuesday, February 11, 2003

Jen

I wish you were here

Wow. It looks like there hasn't been much going on for the past week. I haven't had a chance to write anything due to my ever increasing job responsiblities. Now, I have an idea as to what Becky went through taking over for a pregnant lady as well. I only wish that I got relocated to California. . .

Anyway, last week I managed to get a lot of stuff crossed off my to-do list - ok, really only three of eight things. I HAVE to sell that stuff on e-bay before it's worth absolutely nothing. I have this palm pilot that I loved when I first got it, and then realized how I really had no use for the thing. It's just so much easier to write things on paper as opposed to that tiny little keyboard. It's got to be worth at least $400 still - that is enough to buy myself an i-pod. mmmmm, i-pod.

Classes are back in session and my first class of the week is tomorrow morning at 9. I'm no good with 9 o'clock classes. They just require much too much effort. That and I really don't think well that early. I'm a 10 o'clock kind of lady. I'm no longer crabby and I can actually have a full and intelligent conversation. 9 is usually filled with grunts and moans.

I'm excited to be headed into my last semester here. I have fully decided that I'm only staying for my masters. I just don't think that the three years would make a difference to me, although I'll really miss my boys here - Brian and Jon. I just think I need to get this over with and get on with my life. Just seems like the right thing to do right now.

Ok, one short story and then I'm off for home and yoga. Nate and I are at Cody's on Saturday night, sitting at the bar, enjoying $1.75 Schlitz (this is only important due to the fact that they are soooo cheap.) This women sits down next to me -she's in her fifties (I find this out later), she's smoking (she just started a year ago because she rather die younger than older) and she orders a glass of wine (only important because we are at a bar that also serves $1.75 Schlitz.) Anyway, I have the pleasure of talking to her for a majority of the night, and she's a real cool lady. I'm not sure exactly what I said, but she then tells me, "You're like the daughter I aborted 24 years ago." Hmmm. How does one respond to that?